While Amber Rose freely impacted her now-ex Alexander Edwards for going behind her back with 12 ladies—which he later conceded to—that doesn’t mean she isn’t encountering catastrophe.

Taking to Instagram Stories, the model opened up regarding why she remained with the music chief for such a long time despite his activities.

“Ur mind advises you to run when ur heart says stay,” her message read. “I wish it were not difficult to ‘fix him’; however that is not for me to do. The aggravation cuts so profoundly, particularly when youngsters are included. I will consistently adore him so much, yet I realize I can’t recuperate him no one, but he can do that.”

Golden, who shares 22-month-old child Slash Alexander Edwards with Alexander, clarified that she examined his treachery via online media as an approach to break liberated from the relationship.

“I realized I needed to set myself free openly, or I would’ve remained perpetually, never getting the adoration I longed for and asked for,” she composed. “Extreme decision since it harms so awful however I pick me.”

As she put it, “I didn’t want to need to do this by any means. I simply needed my family, MY HUSBAND.”

“There’s just so often I can request that a man be straightforward, legit and love me earnestly,” she added. “I couldn’t say whether I’ll get the glad closure I needed; however, perhaps I’ll get the cheerful consummation I merit.”

Golden is likewise a mother to 8-year-old child Sebastian Taylor Thomaz, whom she imparts to ex Wiz Khalifa.

She added, “I’ve been so steadfast and straightforward; however, I haven’t gotten similar energy in return…The absence of reliability and the insolence is absurd, and I’m finished.”